7.10.2008
back from school. sucks. someone took my cig when i left it somewhere..
jus went to some shop at the lrt near my hse to get a new pack.
ahhh. dunno whats wif her jus now. jus said something bad about him and she jus took off. angry or something. zzz. time and time again it jus proves to me tat she loves him much much more den me. ill jus have to accept the truth. theres nth else i can do about it. cant expect her to change for me. she wun. hhas. i cant really expect anything.. shes now going to meet him. do you know how much it hurts to have someone you really love deeply and tat he/she is now in the arms of someone else. it really hurts deeply. what to do except acting like i dun even care but deep inside its bleeding.. well.. what to do. i cant possibly force her not go. it only creates more quarrel and misunderstandings maybe. drinking is the only way to ease this pain deep inside me.. but my liver is jus gonna suffer. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. fuck
having tuition at 6 later.. have to finish my hw before that. tata all.
- tears dont fall.. it crashes around me
NO MORE SECRETS FROM NOW ON
- 4:05 PM