wahahahaa

2011-11-30T02:10:00.002+08:00

Turning it off doesn't means your a coward. It just means that you are sick of it.

2011-11-27T12:55:00.002+08:00

Constantly feel dehydrated. Drank more alcohol then water this few days. Its weird when you do not have much emotions like before. Been singing this few days too :)

2011-11-24T00:15:00.000+08:00

Painful, pointless, overrated.

2011-11-21T00:35:00.001+08:00

“A champion is someone who gets up when he can't."

2011-11-20T23:37:00.001+08:00

Being on the edge and not falling over it.

2011-11-16T16:26:00.001+08:00

Okay! Im gonna be more confident in the future! We only live once. So don't hesitate and go do the things you have always wanted to do while still young. :DDD

2011-11-15T11:41:00.000+08:00

“When you believe in something, and you are a good person, things happen.”

2011-11-14T17:25:00.002+08:00

Okay so I'm on a hiatus for around 3 years? Well things have changed alot since then.. Can't wait to go NS next year. Faster clear it as there's no way to run from it. Hehehe. Decided to quit gaming. Like finally yeah? There's so much thing I want to do right now. Get my driving license, clear my poly stuffs, learn muaythai/bjj and so much more. Turning 21 soon! Feeling old alr :(

2008-10-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

liqoir liqoir :)

2008-09-02T11:41:00.002+08:00

had this similar dream again.
surprisingly felt nothing and did not tear.
did i really changed?
maybe it`s good this way..

2008-08-23T19:56:00.002+08:00

am bored ._.
have to study and piece all the 9oo pieces up :x
anw death race is nice!
really exciting show wif good plot adrenaline-filled throughout.
woohoo~
highly recommanded for action lovers.
http://sg.movies.yahoo.com/Death+Race/movie/14692/
for bored souls, hurry down and catch the movies wif your frens :)

2008-08-23T15:01:00.001+08:00

live and fight for myself :)
craves for martell.. ._.

2008-08-19T00:31:00.002+08:00

2008-08-17T18:42:00.003+08:00

Two butterflies were in love..
One day they decided to play hide and seek.
They fixed a flower and decided that tml,
one who come first and sit on this flower will love the other more.
At morning the female butterfly came very early and waited for the flower to open.
When it opened, she was shocked to see that male butterfly had died inside.
Because he was waiting since last night to tell her,
how much he loves her.

jus a story.
dont know what to blog about ><

2008-08-11T10:12:00.004+08:00

yeah yeah.
not going to plan stuffs anymore.
always..
disappointment.
why shld i even bother.
reached home around 4 plus..
went buangkok kopitiam wif jor and eben.
den walk over to the bus stop below my hse to chat..
how i wish they had never told me.. never.
cant imagine we can chat all the way for almost 4 hrs.
talked about lots of things.
jus woke up.. still feeling so tired.

2008-08-10T12:18:00.003+08:00

dun pain dun pain ><

you cannot be pain <3

2008-08-10T12:17:00.001+08:00

WATER BABY HAD GROWN UP :D

2008-08-09T03:47:00.001+08:00

wa seh.. pain ><

2008-08-07T16:23:00.001+08:00

totally no mood.
sorry.

2008-08-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

jus finish bathing.
nth much to blog about.
found out today tat the mix vege stall at sch is really unhygiene..
they actually use their bare hands to pick up egg dropped from plates and put it back.
wdf. gross -.-
went to have lunch after sch today wif frens at ajisen.
bought a file after tat :D
went home after tat.
hmm.
krishnan is gonna treat us to lunch at some hotel on monday.
he said it`s his custom to treat his classes every year.
rich sia.
anyway he`s the best teacher i have ever seen.
some teachers..
dont wanna mention.
completed ah nan`s guided compo already.
ahah.
hot weather recently.
makes ppl feel irritated at times.
and yeah.
here`s a link of a funny video by my fren :x
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6KRXjHeS10
funny. ahah.
he was drunk.
had science practical today.
physics was hard..
its about electricity.
hmm.
going off to bed soon.
nights ppl !

2008-08-04T19:23:00.002+08:00

theres no 100% assurance,
tat not bottling up things will prevent another heartbreak.
whats worst,
it could bring another.
so why not?
keep it deep inside your heart ; feelings untold.

& it`s amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with every broken piece.

2008-08-03T14:11:00.002+08:00

It`s not that I haven tried,
It`s not like that at all
I`ve tried my best to hold back those tears.
But all there is,
is tears falling.
It`s not like I haven tried.
I`ve tried all I could..

2008-08-03T12:55:00.001+08:00

got tipsy..
tuition jus ended.

2008-08-02T13:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch
other people kissin'
And I remember
when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin',
all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dont why I trusted you
but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend
lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
in your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
Drinkin' tea in bed Watching DVD's
When I discovered
all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping
and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time
that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous,
so you held my hand
when I was feeling down,
you made that face you do
no one in the world that could replace you
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things remind me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

2008-08-01T20:35:00.002+08:00

eheh. neglected my blog.
am now at shengkai`s hse.
frens are playing mahjong outside now.
jus watched the mummy wif sk and sk. ahah.
say kiat and sheng kai :D
quite a nice show.
lots of action.
planning to watch money not enough two..
dun tink got time.
heard tat its quite touching o.o
kai kai intro`ed me lots of song.
nth much to blog.
going off now!

2008-07-28T16:37:00.002+08:00

why ever have so much hope when you know you`ll end up in disappointment?
yes.. its so dam true.
promises are jus meant to be broken.. not kept.

2008-07-27T21:34:00.002+08:00

reached home at 6 plus..
went boat quay wif haoru, wilson, darren, zi liang, yi wen.
went to watch duck knight again wif them before going boat quay.
didnt wanted to cos i watched it before.
went ahead to watch jus to accompany them.
but..
i slept for almost 2 hrs throughout the movie.
ahah.
too tired..
woke up around 4 plus.
tried to patch my warcraft but theres this error.
my wc version is like so outdated =.=
anyway ky helped me solve the error.
played 1 game wif ky and frens.
won :D ahah.
but the game is like so laggy ever since i reformatted my com.
nvm..
dun tink im going to play often.
didnt play much game this year.
amazing.
guess i`m tired of games already.
outings.. slacking.. brothers.. frens are so much better.
much better den staring at a screen for hours :)
spent the whole day at home.
rotting already ><

2008-07-26T17:12:00.002+08:00

hiding things; lies..
guess what?
i`ll jus fade away.
am i even worth something in you?
if there is,
i wun be living wif a hole in my heart right now.

2008-07-26T12:56:00.004+08:00

in the glimpse of hope.. you saw something.
u
n
f
a
i
r
n
e
s
s
what would you do?

i`ll walk away.

When pain doesnt go away,
throughout all desperation.
death doesnt seem so scary;
its just a new temptation..

lying and hiding things wun help. it only makes things worst.

~~fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck~~

2008-07-25T22:11:00.003+08:00

i
feel
so
dumb.
its still bleeding as im typing.
zzz.
didnt know what got to me.
jus wanted to vent all my unhappiness,
and there goes.. a broken glass frame and a bloody hand.
whatever.
didnt sort of regret but its not worth it at all.
things are still the same this few days..
didnt got much time to blog..
jus realised.. what comes around goes around.
feel sad for ah moon..
but time jus canot be turned around.
tats jus how the world is.

anyway. great thanks to my brothers and friends tat speaked up for me at my tagbox.
really appreciate it. theres always some immature kid tat have nothing better to do.
hiding behind a computer screen and ticking me off at my tag box. if you really have something against me. jus call me straight. no point tagging me wif your silly comments.

2008-07-20T21:18:00.003+08:00

nothing much to blog about..

When no ones around to see his pain,
he breaks down.
They say he's so strong,
but they've never seen him cry.
he's got everyone fooled..

- tears are words from the heart.. that can't be spoken.

2008-07-20T11:26:00.003+08:00

when you told me his coming. i said "okay. i`ll go."
deep down inside.. i hoped for you to say "baby. i want you to stay."

~~you didnt. you let me go..~~

2008-07-19T23:29:00.002+08:00

beneath this smile,
no one knows how much pain i had gone through.
how much pain tat is bottled inside..
killing me slowly..

2008-07-19T02:54:00.002+08:00

not all scars show, not all wounds heal.
sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels..
no one really understands the pain bottled inside.
people jus saw the smiles and overlooked the mess.

- the strongest challenge you would ever face is to smile when there are millions of tears in your eyes..

2008-07-18T15:15:00.002+08:00

ahh loads of hw to do.
still have mock exams tml morning.
lots of exams coming up.. prelims.. mock exams.
stressed @@
got the urge to finish up the tests mrs ng gave, study my chem and humanites..
hope i will have time soon for all tat.
gogo ah san!

2008-07-17T21:18:00.003+08:00

nth much to blog about..
as usual school today.
dun have remedials or anything after tat.
went home straight.
ahah.
watched district 13 wif her.
nice movie :D
she went off to meet him after tat.
ahh.
went to hougang mall wif richmond and amanda.
rich wanted to stalk gwen.
hhas.
really went into her when we were going to the top floor.
rich immediately went to hide -.-
now hes emo about her.
went to buy another dvd name shooter.
about sniper and stuffs.
hope it will be nice.
got the urge these few days to like keep buying dvd and watch them ==
waited for quency at mac after tat.
she took long to reach. zzz.
went home after she reach.
didnt want to stay along wif them.
hmm. going to do krishnan`s hw..
im boredddd. ><
kinda confused about stuffs. argh.
anyways. what can i really do about it?
~~nth at all..~~

2008-07-15T21:45:00.001+08:00

whats there to say?

2008-07-14T17:06:00.004+08:00

back from school. had english enrichment jus now and ended so late.
alright.
time to study hard. drink less. smk less. exercise more. eat well.
shld really revise all my work now and buck up on my humanities.
dont wanna think too much already.
it doesnt help.
heartbroken or not, shes jus the way she is.
theres really somethings tat really wun change.
accept the fact yea.
unfair or not.
its still the fact.
studies shld be my priority now.
work hard and keep myself busy. :)

2008-07-13T22:48:00.001+08:00

im really very disappointed. really.

2008-07-13T19:45:00.003+08:00

i got it now.
everything else is more important than me.
no wonder i always longed for a punching bag.
no wonder they says cig are your best friend..
tears fell uncontrollably..

2008-07-13T19:16:00.002+08:00

told me shes jus going to meet him for awhile.
look at the time now.
isit really awhile?
told me shes going home.
is she now?
fuck.
i dont wanna care anymore.

2008-07-13T15:22:00.009+08:00

jus finished my lunch..
went home late and didnt even know what time is it.
ahhhhhhhh.
her days wif him are like so unforgettable and fun.
shes always enjoying it.
how about mine?
~~i dunno~~ ><
she didnt even mention it. not even once. unlike him..
nvm.
have to finish krishnan`s homework later.
shes off to meet him now.
awww. this feeling in my heart again. zzz.
he jus seems much more important me.
nth i can do..
anyways. i will exercise more often from now on.
wahahaha :D
a fitter ah san. woohoo~

- 点了支不想抽的烟. 思念像烟圈飘散在窗边.. ><

2008-07-11T20:48:00.001+08:00

i did everything i could.
i gave everything i can.
things are jus still the same.

guess i shld jus give the last bit of hope up ><

2008-07-11T16:39:00.003+08:00

back from school. had this detention which is like sitting there for 2 hours. ~~fucking~~ boring.. still have another detention which is 1 hour on tues. zzz. my teacher went missing during a maths lesson. something cropped up i tink. hhas. have science tuition tml at 1 pm. dunno wan go anot. lols. shld be going but theres deals tml. theres still a night class at sch which is around 9 plus i tink. weird timing -.- accidently toppled a cup of drink and it spilled on pigpig. ahh psps =x didnt mean it. going to meet her at punggol during 6 plus. tinking of meeting my frens first at sch cos theres this pop parade for ncc and they are going to observe it or something. boring. dun tink can make it for movie wif them later. hmm. on second thoughts im going to rest at home first.. dun feel like going out yet. off to bed for a nap now :D tatas.

2008-07-10T23:20:00.002+08:00

ahhh. feeling so bored now. quite tired.. going to bed soon.

she keeps falling asleep on the phone. what a pig. hhas. underpig :x theres detention tml after school. jus for being late almost everyday. ahah. as usual theres nth much to do except smking.. argh. wonder when is the swimming complex or whatever which is at sengkang is going to open soon. at least there will be something for me to do in this area. hhas. had been spending quite alot of money on drinking sessions. didnt regret it yet.. at least it eases my pain.. i tink shes snoring right now. ahah. hmm. gonna finish my naruto anime and den im off to bed. nights!

2008-07-10T16:05:00.002+08:00

back from school. sucks. someone took my cig when i left it somewhere..

jus went to some shop at the lrt near my hse to get a new pack.

ahhh. dunno whats wif her jus now. jus said something bad about him and she jus took off. angry or something. zzz. time and time again it jus proves to me tat she loves him much much more den me. ill jus have to accept the truth. theres nth else i can do about it. cant expect her to change for me. she wun. hhas. i cant really expect anything.. shes now going to meet him. do you know how much it hurts to have someone you really love deeply and tat he/she is now in the arms of someone else. it really hurts deeply. what to do except acting like i dun even care but deep inside its bleeding.. well.. what to do. i cant possibly force her not go. it only creates more quarrel and misunderstandings maybe. drinking is the only way to ease this pain deep inside me.. but my liver is jus gonna suffer. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ~~fuck~~

having tuition at 6 later.. have to finish my hw before that. tata all.

- tears dont fall.. it crashes around me

2008-07-09T23:24:00.003+08:00

back from cp. didnt do much except slacking there.
really miss those times when we will jus chat for long hours everyday. ><

off to do hw den off to bed. nights.

2008-07-09T20:24:00.005+08:00

well.. my first post at my very own blog.
had a hard time figuring out how to do those blogskins and stuffs.
hhas.
anyway here goes.

things hasn't been very nice to me all this while..
didnt expect her to be this unfair to me ><
talked to her about it but things are like still the same.
she changed..
her attitude, her temper.
getting worst as days go by.
she didnt had this attitude and temper in the past.
maybe shes too stressed up by things or shes jus taking me for granted.. or maybe not i hope.
jus hope tat she can be like the past, a cute and cheerful girl. always smiling away and never fails to make me laugh.
oh well. things dont last forever and it cant be helped =/
hope she can change her temper and attitude cos its killing me already.

o levels are coming soon and i have to buck up on my studies. hha.
few more months and im free :D
looking forward to much longer hair den i have now and much much more. woohoo~

jiayou everyone this year who is having o's too. <3
off to meet frens at starbucks. haven seen them for quite some time.